today, i awaken feeling sad that i am unable to make the voyage i have dreamed of for such a long time; so, i amplify the continuous litany of thank yous to Beloved that play through me continuously…
thank you Beloved and Beloveds for hearing my silent plea and responding so generously… thousandfold thanks, thank you, thank you, thank you…
in this moment, this beautiful moment,
greet yourself with elation
as you arrive at the threshhold, the doorway home.
smile and breathe in the stranger , you…
embraceyourself, reverence yourself, open your heart to you.
sit, feast, luxuriate, dance your radiance
diving ever deeper into the ocean of love…
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joyous day of listening to beloved with every breath and re-membering home is where the heart is and living there in openess is everything…
the daybegins in beloved community as our pod gathers for a wake to celebrate and honor our sistar whose presence is so alive in us as if she sits in circle with us and indeed she does… what a beautiful, tender, exhilarating way to start the new day, to be in every moment…. walking home together hand in hand into our one heart…
i love sundays as a day of rest… my body knows it’s sunday like a horse instinctively knows the way home… it’s been such a wild and wooly week with my car rupturing, and then my eye rupturing followed by emergency surgery to save the eye, a pilgrimage home, daily visits to the hospital, being tended by so many angels holding me in the light and now a day of being sleeping beauty, of being still in the darkness, of contemplating mystery…
i love Saurdays… i awaken and arise to wade deeply in the water… i have always loved grandmother ocean and no matter what is going on, i’m at peace when with her…
today is an ecstatic re-membering and re-telling of this pivotal week when nothing went the way i had imagined…. a week of meeting each wave of grandmother trusting in her divine orchestration… what an enormous gift to sing with the pod in perfect harmony in the deep blue sea of love energy…
diving ever deeper into the SHERO Journey…
Smile
Heart breathing
Embracing all that is
Reverencing everything
Opening the heart ever wider
always being love…
a long day filled with angelic healing beings capped off with a magical tram flight across portalandia’s skyline as the sun is going down…. another day of seeing inner light through my blind eye and amazed at the collaboration of the trillions of cells to heal the one body… blessed harmony… amazing grace… enjoying even this wild and bumpy ride…
i awaken today feeling an inner sadness that a long held dream, a dream of 9 months, a dream of 22 years, is going to be stillborn… and so on the daily pilgrimage to the eye surgeon, i am already knowing that he will say this outer journey is out of the question, the next 2 weeks are critical for saving my eye, i must be still…
i was born still, in moments of crisis, it is my coping strategy par excellance, i live in stillness, yes, even this i am thankful for trusting in Beloved’s divine orchestration, grandmother spider woman’s wonder filled weaving of the web of life…
i do so love exploring inner space and so, yes, again i surrender to love, to being love, to beloved…
thank you, beloved, for bringing so much beauty, so much love… in this moment, this beautiful moment, i am luxuriating in an ocean of love as you send angels to sing to me on this liminal day… this day of floating between waking and dreaming consciousness seamlessly… this day of floating fluidly, of re-membering…
walking into sacred ceremony at the exact moment of beginning the closing of an initiation where hearts had opened so very deeply and miracles manifested… a closing that opened to include my daughter in the honoring of the mother and her mother…
thank you, beloved for bringing so much beauty, so much love…
the initiation ceremony is soon to begin… the consensus is that a few sutures to the eyelid from an urgent care will fix me right up, so, knight in shining arrmor, jeff, and i go off on the long and winding road healing mission… urgent care sends us to the emergency room of a local hospital who realizes the injury is far more serious than just a totally lacerated eyelid… as all helicopters were in use, i got ambulanced to Washington’s #1 trauma center, Harborview in Seattle where the only 2 surgeons that could perform this surgery are…
so far every person we encounter is such a beautiful being of light and they are all amazed at my great spirits… i’m stretchered into their ER, thought i’d seen busy ones before but Harborview takes the cake… again, everyone is so upbeat and so concerned…. even when the doctor said this surgery was about saving my eye and i might not regain vision, it was still a beautiful party and, no, i wasn’t on any drug but love, the most intoxicating drug of all…
eight hours later, i’m still on a stretcher in the hall waiting for an OR or hospital room to open when an angel of mercy appears saying that, finally, an OR is available… one minute i’m breathing deep breaths and then what seems like the next moment, although it’s 3 hours later, the surgeon is telling me all is well… and there’s even a room for me after the recovery room… Hallelujah!
soon, my daughter is calling from Portland to say she is getting in her car to bring me home in a very no arguing with me tone… yes, i was still having visions of my car getting fixed that day in time for me to drive it home as a one-eyed bandit or patch over the eye pirate… and, yes, i’m a dreamer, thank goodness i’m in such amazing company…. always being and becoming boundless love!
i awaken hearing Beloved singing me, calling me to return home to her… i arise to open the sacred space to beauty, love and peace as Osun’s adept prepares the space in a sacred way…
everything is humming beautifully and i greet other pilgrims who arrive for this initiation…
i am called to go downstairs where meeting and greeting the dogs turns into quite an initiation i hadn’t seen coming as one of the dogs swats her arm at me… i’m sure she was trying to open my 3rd eye but clawed my 1st eye lacerating the lid and rupturing the eyeball…
i knew the wound was severe… i couldn’t see, blood was gushing and the pain shocking… my overriding concern was to comfort the children who witnessed this happening…
It was decided that i needed to be in the healing space of the sacred circle and be attended by the lightworkers present before journeying on on one of the wildest ODDysseys ever…
From the moment it happened, i intensified my continuous loop of thank yous always breathing me transforming theODDyssey into a pilgrimage of grace…