yesterday i felt abandon, not the wild freeing abandon, but the scorned lover variety, until the sun, in the form of holy grandmother spider creatrix, peeked through the clouds offering warm embraces and whispered words of wisdom to be still in this moment of abandon, to trust this moment of surrender, to re-member the sun always shines and when it shines on rain, being is transformed into iridescent rainbow encircling the cosmos within and without converging in perfect harmony, in this moment, this beautiful moment of grace…