every outbreath, an emptying… every inbreath, a re-membering…

such a conscious quest i’m on these last four years to do just that – to awaken every wild cell in this one cell of the one body we all are and what an adventure transmuting the lead into gold…

on this iconic day of flames etched in the collective unconscious, on this 9-11 day i re-member four years ago when my fire eye, the eye suffering a devastating injury surrendered to the inflammation process that had been percolating for moons… the pain was as intense as when the eye had been clawed and once again it was not looking good… shuttled from department to department for tests and more tests, i stayed in constant communion with beloved expressing my doubts about being up for this calling to surrender and awaken in the most transformal way to date… this intense purification has geometrically progressed turn around the sun after turn around the sun for these last many moons opening me and so many others to the deepest, most conscious awakening initiation ever…

as with all calls to initiation, i (and i don’t think i was alone in this sense) did not feel i had it in me to make this pilgrimage and, yet, in surrendering to  limited outer sight, a rhythm of  synchronisiddhi, of meaningful co-incidence followed opening my broken heart to a heart broken wide open… holy synchronicity, in this deep pool of reflection, a re-membering flows by… today is also the eighth anniversary of the first outer poetic peace pilgrimage, a day when i connected with Sacajawea who vowed to guide me through the wilder-ness…

poised on the precipice of the beginning of the fifth year of this conscious awakening cycle, it’s so interesting to find myself once again in the midst of making another leap onward, another strenuous challenge catapulting me into another letting go and emptying to make space for the new world…

thanks be for the awakening project we call life guided by the enspirited soul emphatically, magnetically pulling us home to be instruments of peace, hollow reeds, channels for source energy to pour love through…

so, on a day such as this, under the spell of this moment of eternity, may we let go of  the inessential and re-member what truly matters is who we really are…