today i rest in the tomb feeling like sleeping beauty or a coming of age being who goes out alone in the wilderness to crawl into a hole in our earth mother and call for our name, our true name after going through crucifixion, dismemberment and facing our deepest fear of dying by “dying” before we die, dying to a fearful existence and opening the heart to all that comes and in such radical surrender, arising into a new way of being, a new life… life everlasting real-eye-sing there is no death, we and all our relations are immortal, called with every breath to invisibly arise and transform…