wading in the water today, spinning deeper and deeper into stillness, listening to Beloved…
Beloved, i hear your call to me,
‘come and dive into the deep blue sea
be still in the depths of me, listen as i sing through thee…
everything falls away freely, all that is, is great mystery unfoding perfectly.’
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today is the day i begin my pilgrimage along the Salish Sea to Cortes Island for the 7 Seals Initiation, only I’m quarantined in Portalandia because of the rupturing of my green eye, the loving eye… so, this pilgrimage of opening portals will be an inner one deep in our one heart, in the stillpoint, perfectly poised to listen to beloved and surrender my heart to our heart.
like dragonfly, i begin this voyage by purifying in healing waters followed with communion with beloveds and off to the temple of healing to hear that my eye is healing better than expected by the high priest… how could it not be so with a whole communion of beautiful beings calling this in…
home to our one heart to enter dreamtime and weave webs of jeweled light as we rise up from the water becoming winged radiant light, flying rainbows painting the skies in wondrous tones of peace and harmony…
and so, the journey begins…
ah yes, this theme has been playing through me prominently the last two weeks… today begins in divine communion on the peace train where we are entraining our destination, Open Heart Univercity… I get so excited that i get off at a station where i wasn’t planning on getting off and spend many hours trying to find my way back home… at every deadend, i re-member that it is the impeded stream that sings and that when we don’t know where we’re going, the real journey begins…
once again, Beloved whispers to be still and listen…
today, i awaken feeling sad that i am unable to make the voyage i have dreamed of for such a long time; so, i amplify the continuous litany of thank yous to Beloved that play through me continuously…
thank you Beloved and Beloveds for hearing my silent plea and responding so generously… thousandfold thanks, thank you, thank you, thank you…
in this moment, this beautiful moment,
greet yourself with elation
as you arrive at the threshhold, the doorway home.
smile and breathe in the stranger , you…
embraceyourself, reverence yourself, open your heart to you.
sit, feast, luxuriate, dance your radiance
diving ever deeper into the ocean of love…
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joyous day of listening to beloved with every breath and re-membering home is where the heart is and living there in openess is everything…
the daybegins in beloved community as our pod gathers for a wake to celebrate and honor our sistar whose presence is so alive in us as if she sits in circle with us and indeed she does… what a beautiful, tender, exhilarating way to start the new day, to be in every moment…. walking home together hand in hand into our one heart…
i love sundays as a day of rest… my body knows it’s sunday like a horse instinctively knows the way home… it’s been such a wild and wooly week with my car rupturing, and then my eye rupturing followed by emergency surgery to save the eye, a pilgrimage home, daily visits to the hospital, being tended by so many angels holding me in the light and now a day of being sleeping beauty, of being still in the darkness, of contemplating mystery…
i love Saurdays… i awaken and arise to wade deeply in the water… i have always loved grandmother ocean and no matter what is going on, i’m at peace when with her…
today is an ecstatic re-membering and re-telling of this pivotal week when nothing went the way i had imagined…. a week of meeting each wave of grandmother trusting in her divine orchestration… what an enormous gift to sing with the pod in perfect harmony in the deep blue sea of love energy…
diving ever deeper into the SHERO Journey…
Smile
Heart breathing
Embracing all that is
Reverencing everything
Opening the heart ever wider
always being love…
a long day filled with angelic healing beings capped off with a magical tram flight across portalandia’s skyline as the sun is going down…. another day of seeing inner light through my blind eye and amazed at the collaboration of the trillions of cells to heal the one body… blessed harmony… amazing grace… enjoying even this wild and bumpy ride…
i awaken today feeling an inner sadness that a long held dream, a dream of 9 months, a dream of 22 years, is going to be stillborn… and so on the daily pilgrimage to the eye surgeon, i am already knowing that he will say this outer journey is out of the question, the next 2 weeks are critical for saving my eye, i must be still…
i was born still, in moments of crisis, it is my coping strategy par excellance, i live in stillness, yes, even this i am thankful for trusting in Beloved’s divine orchestration, grandmother spider woman’s wonder filled weaving of the web of life…
i do so love exploring inner space and so, yes, again i surrender to love, to being love, to beloved…